Just Some Thoughts of Mine

I don't have anything to really post today. We went to church and then we went to see if my bil and sil were home but they weren't. So we went to Harlow's mom and dad's grave and visited there. We walked around the cemetery too. There were some really old ones too. Kind of sad though because some of them were so old you couldn't read what it said or they were falling down. No one to take care of them. I wonder what could be done for those ones. You know they were loved at one time and it's just sad to see them falling apart.

While we were looking at all the different headstones we saw some that were babies and still others that were in their teens. Jarod looks down at them and says "I don't like it when babies die mom." I told him I didn't either. I know it might sound odd but I like looking through all the headstones. I imagine what their lives were like. Some even had their pictures on them.

I have told Harlow many times that when I die I don't want to be buried. I want to be cremated. I don't know exactly why I feel that way I just do. I have told him too that I don't want a big service or anything either. If family and friends want to get together and remember me that's ok. They can have a big party or something. I don't want them to be sad but I know they will be. I want people to remember my life not the sadness of my death.

Hmm this post has become a morbid post hasn't it? Sorry about that. Just going to there made me think of these things. It's funny how when I was younger I was afraid of death but now that I am older (yes I know 32 isn't old LOL) I am not afraid any more. I am thinking it's more because of my Faith now then me getting older. Maybe it's both who knows.

Sorry I didn't blog yesterday. We had church and didn't get home till after 9 PM and I was too tired to get on an blog LOL. We are reading Romans in our class at church. We have been talking about the difference of living just under the law and living under Grace. I am really enjoying it.

Today was Create and Play with the MOMS Club. We made some homemade children hand castings for the craft. It's just using flour, salt and water. She is going to take them home to bake and paint them. I think they will turn out great! I can't wait to see them!

Later we went to Harlow's brother's house to just hang out. The boy's had fun playing with one of their cousins. Their other one was in preschool so she wasn't there but her younger brother was. They always have so much fun when we go there.

Afterwards we went to Burger King and got something to eat and went to the cemetery where Harlow's mom and dad are buried. They finally have a headstone up for them so I got to see it for the first time. We didn't stay long though because it was pretty chilly out. We will go again when it's nicer out. Maybe we'll bring some flowers to put out there too.

I didn't know Harlow's dad too well. I had met and talked with him before we were married and all but I didn't get to know him much. Harlow's mom though I did. I really do miss her. She really was like another mom to me. I could go and talk to her about anything and she would listen. If I miss her that much I can only imagine how much Harlow misses both his parents. That is something as a wife I can't take away the pain of losing them.

Ok I am done being sappy I guess. Tomorrow was supposed to be a Bible Study within the MOMS Club but that was postpone till the 16th now. Tomorrow the boy's have a Hula Hoop thing at Church to go to. There will be games and things there for the community! I think it will be a good time.

No plans as of yet for the weekend. Probably go to my mom's on Sunday for Mother's Day but that's about it. Things will probably change though. They always do LOL. I hope everyone is having a good week!